rachellcuthbert

10 things that makes me happy

 

  1. Singing  I adore singing, it is definitely my favourite thing to do that makes me feel happy and good about myself.  However, it does have to be songs that I know I can sing well, or just songs that I really rock out to (in private or in a really noisy club).
  2. Dogs  My two babies, who, if I didn’t have, would make my life a whole lot less worthwhile.  I love how they make me laugh, they love me and love me cuddling them.  On a side note, I do not enjoy the barking, poop and lack of room in the bed.
  3. Lord of the rings  I adore Tolkien and when reading his books or watching Peter Jacksons epic trilogy, I lose myself in Middle Earth and for the entire duration, Im there.  I wish I could live there, Id live in Lothlorien, its so beautiful.
  4. When my family and special friends tell me they love me  There is something so special when people who I love, tell me they love me.
  5. New Zealand  I went there as part of my midwifery course and instantly fell in love with the country, the people, the food, the lifestyle and most of all, the landscape.  I have never felt so happy as i did when i was there and I have made some beautiful friends there.  I just hope I get to go again, I miss it every day.
  6. Summer Holidays  There is something so special about going on holiday with family and or friends in a hot sunny climate and by the sea and a pool.  I am so happy lying in the sun and going for a swim when I get too hot, reading a book and eating the local cuisine.  As a family, we always immerse ourselves into the local culture and we really get a sense of the life in that country.
  7. Musical Theatre  I only discovered my passion for this 3 years ago and I never want to not be a part of it, being amongst like minded people, singing, acting, dancing and now directing, choreographing, designing sets, props and costumes.  I adore every part of this.
  8. My arts and crafts  Ive always been artistic, but since becoming disabled, Ive discovered more talents than I ever could imaging, I make amigurumi (crocheted baby toys), felt brooches, jewellery and mobiles and I feel so accomplished when Ive done them.
  9. Dancing  Not just musical theatre dancing, but nightclub dancing, I could dance all night and indeed I used to before my illnesses stopped me.
  10. Joking around with my friends and family  I love humour and love making fun of my family and closest friends and have them make fun of me, we really have a wonderful time when we are all together laughing.

Published by rachellcuthbert

I am a fat, forty something, fibromyalgia warrior who is a wife, a mother to 3 incredible teenagers/young adults and 2 dogs. After having my children, I trained for 6 years to become a midwife, which was a dream of mine. 5 years into my job, I was working on the community, holding clinics, visiting pregnant women and new mums at their homes as well as helping women give birth. Stress was always part of my life as we were a busy family and I didnt realise how much it was affecting my health, also the stress from fear of being sued whilst working as a midwife and the stress from trying to give women all the care they needed whilst being understaffed, therefore feeling failure regularly. I became ill, diagnosed with; Fibromyalgia, vertigo, depression, anxiety, tempero mandibular jaw dysfunction, hypermobility, oesophagitis, migraines, gastric ulcer, premature menopause as well as dermatillomania and trichotillomania. After battling to get disability benefits (even though it was impossible to function as a standard human, let alone work!), i was finally given a pittance. So, sat at home all day long, grieving about being taken away from a job that i had adored and worked so hard to achieve, staring at my increasingly messy and unclean house (couldnt stand for more than a minute, no strength to hold anything and exhausted and the slighted activity), watching mind numbing television, I decided to try to do something about it. I refused to accept that this was my life from now on and I definitely refused to accept that I was to receive such an insulting benefit after working most of my adult life (other than to have my beautiful babies), so I looked at ways I could make money, that suited my irregular hours, days etc of work ability, but that could also make enough to allow me to tell the benefit people what exactly they could do with the pennies i received. Initially, i taught myself to crochet and I am now able to make beautiful toys for babies, that are safe to use and beautiful to look at, but unfortunately, because of the pain i get in my fingers and wrists, it takes a long time to make and so was not suitable as a way of making money. Then I started to make jewellery again (I made and sold bits and bobs as a teenager) and found my passion in doing this and also, that I was good. My friend and I discussed my options and between us decided that we would both create handmade items to sell in an online boutique initially, then, if we were successful enough, a walk in boutique, with a big side room to hold workshops. And this is where we currently are working towards, I have high hopes and ambition for my future now and it is helping me with a lot of my illnesses and symptoms. I have found I am passionate about a lot of things, equality/feminism, environment, self sufficiency, herbalism, holistic health care and I want to share my research, ideas and achievements with you all. Hopefully, I will achieve my dreams, and I would also love it, if, I can help some of you too. Loves xx

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